jimmy n me:))

one of the best companions life offered me was my pet jimmy.... came home jst 15days old...n we loved the surprise by dad,though mom was grumbling!
he wagged his tail wen we came home from school, licked our faces, n always begged for food:)
he grew in no time...while he chewed all possible things...from shoes to furniture...n was treated like the kid of the home......
all fell in love with him....but he fell n love with mom...cos she fed him...n with me...i dont know why?i told him all my woes n he licked my tears if i cried....but if jimmy was hurt we all cried....
he was a big boy n all were scared of his jaw n teeth....but not me.........i pampered him the most...got him chewes n a new belt in his neck....wud give him a bath ,brush his hair,feed him morsels from my plate,sleep on the same pillow,dust away the tics,take him for a walk or rather he wud take me for one......n much more.......somehow he became my child, though i wud tie a rakhi on him...n he wud be delighted abt it! he was extemely intelligent n understood all that was said to him...
one day he got a bad wound..n the vet said he mite lose his leg....i cried with the rest...but dressed his wound repeatedly...he howled as it pained but only allowed me to do it...n love healed him....
yrs passed attachment increased n we dint realise that jimmy was no more a young boy....he was growing old but to me he was still my child...dint ever sleep without giving him a bed....dint ever eat without giving him a part...kissed him on his face n hugged him everyday...n if he was hurt it hurt me...
jst the manisfestation of his old age worried me...i knew time was less....n wen he walked with difficulty i helped him for slow walks...gave him medicines wen he was ill...but cried abt knowing the fact...that someday jimmy my child will be gone.......
he was ill n i knew it....got a call from mom...come home soon jimmy is very ill....i cudnt stop my tears n cried aloud on the station while i got in the train..came home jst to see dad digging a grave in the garden..i dint want to believe ,stepped home to see jimmy lying still...sleeping 4ever..cudn wake him up..i jst collapsed in grief....n only we cud know the pain.......that mischievious kid who gave me joy all life..who wiped my tears n shared my pillow was no more.......
i still sit at his grave..n look into the sky...say a hi to the lovliest star......my jimmy....

joy of giving....

....i had bought a toy bicycle one day...very cute...like to collect antique n different things...like matichi khelni n other things... i like to also give away things n even part of me n without expecting from others...it makes me feel gud....i decided to give this toy to mavia... my leukemia patient...4yr old....dint live enough though... finally i gave it 2 my exam case...rachit...aur phir mavia ki yaad aayi....

i used to sing n dance with her in the special ward n she never cried when i pricked her so many times for her medication...so brave at 4!!!
one day she wanted to have sheera... not allowed any outside food...her mother was sad...her home was in MP n she cud not cook for her....but she did not ask....one day i askd mavia wat she wants since she was not eating for many days....she said sheera...

i dint know how to get it...since outside food is not allowed n i was not allowed to go home being a resident doctor...i was restless...i knew she cud die any moment...
i called ma....she understood wat i felt...she sent my aunt with a full dabba of sheera....in those days even i never got food properly...n ghar ka to rare tha....
i gave it to mavia...n wat i felt is really close to my heart....

u know wat.. life is so unpredictable...i wish i can give more of myself to every person in my life...so when its time for me to die...i wont repent a single deed of selfishness....