joy of giving....

....i had bought a toy bicycle one day...very cute...like to collect antique n different things...like matichi khelni n other things... i like to also give away things n even part of me n without expecting from others...it makes me feel gud....i decided to give this toy to mavia... my leukemia patient...4yr old....dint live enough though... finally i gave it 2 my exam case...rachit...aur phir mavia ki yaad aayi....

i used to sing n dance with her in the special ward n she never cried when i pricked her so many times for her medication...so brave at 4!!!
one day she wanted to have sheera... not allowed any outside food...her mother was sad...her home was in MP n she cud not cook for her....but she did not ask....one day i askd mavia wat she wants since she was not eating for many days....she said sheera...

i dint know how to get it...since outside food is not allowed n i was not allowed to go home being a resident doctor...i was restless...i knew she cud die any moment...
i called ma....she understood wat i felt...she sent my aunt with a full dabba of sheera....in those days even i never got food properly...n ghar ka to rare tha....
i gave it to mavia...n wat i felt is really close to my heart....

u know wat.. life is so unpredictable...i wish i can give more of myself to every person in my life...so when its time for me to die...i wont repent a single deed of selfishness....